"So let me get this straight, you and I had a thing as in us together?"

"Geez Nick you make me out to be a one night stand"

"Well no it's just I never imagined you and I would be together intimately, it just seems…."

"Impossible?"

"Out of the ordinary"

"I guess that's better than impossible"

"So what happened after that?"

"Well I caught you cheating on me and I ended up going out with Brian after you and I broke up"

"I knew you two liked each other, so any future plans?"

"Well no, I broke it off with Brian after we spent a night together"

"Man this sounds like a Jerry Springer show without the transvestites"

"That's not all, the accident revolved around a drunken night you were all sharing and you told Brian everything that happened with us and drove off in your car after a heated argument, I have no idea what was said but it must have been pretty bad"

"AJ told me I said that Brian had no balls and to face the fact that you left him because you always loved me"

Wow, he hit the nail right on the head there.

"Anything else I need to know?"

Tell him now, just tell him about Logan…

"I think that's about it"

"Well good because Brian and I will be talking tomorrow"

"Tomorrow? Why tomorrow?"

"I'm getting Kevin to organise a meeting with you, Brian and I so we can discuss this like adults. I mean it's only fair right? I know Brian doesn't really want to talk to me but I have to try. I'm sick of being outcast like a leper, scars from the surgery let alone getting the silent treatment off my best friend. I need to sort this out as quickly as possible. Why? You thought I'd freak out about this?"

"Let's put it this way, you were an alcoholic for a period of 6 months after we broke up, it was only that I even had the feelings I did that made you stop drinking, Nick you have to understand that there's more to this than just what I told you, so much more and right now I don't think I can explain it but hopefully in time I can. All this information is a lot to take in right now and for me to mention anything else could trigger your memories"

It's a surprise isn't it? To see me in a different light"

"Yeah a complete role reversal to what I'm used to believe me"

"Skye if there's anything else you can tell me, I'd take it"

"As I said more than you can handle right now"

"I've been through an accident, 6 months of mental and physical therapy and you're telling me that you want me to believe that I have to wait for an explanation? I guess I'll have to deal"

"Okay so you want to talk to Brian right now?"

"You're not ready…"

"What?"

"I get it you're not ready to see him, Skye we all have to face our possible fears, that's what I was taught in therapy, we have to overcome our obstacles and face the reality, I have to face him too"

"But what he's feeling maybe on the verge of hatred"

"Whatever you do don't go near him alright? Let Kev convince him to come and sort this out. The last thing I want is to get on Leigh's bad side"

"Is she nice? Leigh Anne?"

"I guess so, they're married and Brian seems happy but I really want to get this sorted out and over with. It may trigger back my memories"

"Are you sure you want to do that? I mean this could be well not so pleasant"

"Andy is there something you're not telling me? Avoiding Brian is going to make the situation much worse for you in the long run. The least we can do is try and figure this all out, talk through our problems"

"Nick do you have any idea what you're about to do? We're talking about 4 years of pent up anger. Brian is hella pissed and do you really think he would want to see me?"

"I really don't know Skye, that's why I'm going to ring and ask him"

"No! Please, just give it a few days"

"What the hell is with you? What the hell is going on here? I want the truth"

"Brian and I aren't speaking Nick I doubt it that he'd even want to talk to me. I left him a letter about us breaking up. That he would be better off with someone that would make him happy. I buried that secret for years and for him to find out the way he did it was so tragic for you to go through all this but in the end the result will be the same. Brian will never forgive me for what I done and I can't go back to the way things were, I just have to accept life the way it has come"

"So what you're saying is you'd rather sit here and feel sorry for yourself than face Brian and sort this out?"

"Not exactly"

"But that's what you're saying aren't you? That you'd rather let sleeping dogs lie and forget about what happened regardless if Brian wanted to see you or not?"

"He may not want to see me Nick, he has a lot of anger inside"

"Do you blame him? If I got dumped the way he did I would be a little pissed too, I can understand what you went through to make that decision but listen he went through a lot to try and get over you. I know now that he never really got over you even after sorting his differences out with Leigh and eventually marrying her. We all thought the same thing. Yes he was married to another woman but that didn't mean he didn't think about you. You were always somewhere in the back of his mind on some level and yes he has the right to be angry and hurt at you. If what you're saying is true then I may have to agree with him but also I can't remember what happened so I can't defend our past relationship or protect you from what he might say. It will be hard but any harsh criticism he delivers listen because it would have been hard to bury it deep within himself for so long and now he has the chance like we do to clear the air. I think you should sit down and go through everything you want to say to him because I know for a fact he'll have plenty to say"

"I feel like I'm o trial"

"So do I but look at it from my point of view, I'm blind, can't remember anything before or after the accident, and I feel absolutely useless to the guys bringing them down and making them feel cautious and nervous around me. They hide it well"

"I've waited for this moment for so long that I don't want it to arrive. How do I say I'm sorry to a guy that I used to love? There are no words to fix what I did. I can't make him be friends with me or forgive me. There's no solution, all I see is me on my knees begging for something I may not even get"

"That's why we have to try Andy, we have to make him see that we loved each other to go through all this. Someone got hurt and unfortunately it was him and he has suffered enough and so have we"

"How can you sit there and be so calm about this? I've been calm up until I saw you, your state how you've been coping. This whole damn situation and I could never figure out in the midst of everything why you are so in control when all your life you've been anything but"

"Because there comes a time in your life where you have to make a stand. I have to stand there and face Brian. I want him to tell me how much he hates me and how he wishes I could make the pain go away. I want him to tell me how much he wants to forget everything and the day will come where he tells me and I will be there ready to say something else than "I'm sorry". He can yell and vent all he likes but at the end of the day I still love him and so do you"

Staring at the man I thought was Nick amazed me. This accident gave him some sort of epiphany. He had a clearer outlook on life and where the result lied in terms of how we talk about this issue like adults. Setting the record straight and being able to communicate, reach each other on some level.

"We're all affected by this Skye and I hope we can all overcome it"

"Why do I feel like I've lost all control? I never thought I would lose so much, give so much up. Lose the one thing that made me truly happy. I gave that up for something I didn't even know if I would ever get back. How do you know that Brian will ever forgive me for all the things I've done to him? He must hate me so much for all this and all I can do is agree. It's so hard to keep fighting a battle that I know I've already lost. But if he was here right now I'd know exactly what to say"

"Then say it, here's you're chance. I'm right here"

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